Mom passed on Sept 28 of this year after a steady decline in her health after having RSV in Dec.
I am typical gen x, push the emotion down and move forward. However, I know that won’t work here. Grief will remain until it’s dealt with and may never fully go away. Having said that, I’ve been slowly greaving throughout her decline, but it isn’t that simple of course. I’ve found grief to be strange and multifaceted. Grief isn’t being sad and missing someone. It’s a full range of emotions. I am shocked but not, all at the same time. I am sad but also relieved that she wasn’t suffering. I am angry that we didn’t have more time, yet grateful for what we had. It’s not one single thing that I feel at any given moment, but many different things. It’s so hard to explain and I definitely understand now why people say you really don’t know what it’s like to lose a parent until you do.
My mom was an artist and one of my influences growing up. She always supported curiosity and being creative.
After she passed, I decided to do an art project that incorporated her work into mine. It was quite cathartic and really looks like something she might have done. She would have loved it for sure. I miss her.
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